Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Posted by Dr. Mahathir Mohamad at December 30, 2008 4:18 PM

1. The world seem to be condemning Israel for the inhuman attack against Gaza. But as usual the world does nothing. Why not? Because Israel is backed by the United States of America.

2. The world should also condemn the United States. The planes and the bombs are all made in America. If they are lost the US will replace them. And the US will finance Israel so as to continue its bestiality.

3. For as long as the US backs Israel, we will continue to see Israel ignoring world opinion as it murders the Palestinians Arabs, and destroys their towns and cities.

4. When I said Israel rules the world by proxy, the American media and Government condemned me. But it is a fact that only those candidates approved by Israel can win elections in America. So much for democracy in the United States. Lets see the stand of the United States' new President.

5. Incidentally we should also realise that we are, in a small way, helping Israel. Israeli persimmons (pisang kaki) are sold in supermarkets in Kuala Lumpur.

6. Singapore is Israel's channel to penetrate the Malaysian market.


Dear Yg Bhg Tun,

The world only dares to condemn but what can be done when the ROBOCOP of the world is controlling every damn body that supposedly to be on the neutral side.

The only start to ending the monopolisation of the Jewish world is for all the Arabs countries especially the oil-rich ones start compromising and working hand in hand to fight this criminals. But, again, do you posibbly think that they're going to jeopardise being attack by the ROBOCOP and its world police and have their countries torn apart?

Hmmm...about the persimmons; i love eating them and knows they are imported from the New Zealand. I do not know some of them (that you stumbled upon) came from Israel.

And how do they get in the country by the way?

Monday, 29 December 2008

An Ox and the Master

It seems that it is not all bad next year as the Year of the Ox will be heralded by spurts of a bull market according to one I-ching expert in Malaysia.
I wonder whether his prediction was based on the Ox per se?
An Ox(or a Bull) is also a term used in the stock market to reflex positive movement in the bourse. Perhaps it was that which brought forth his next year's prediction. I don't really know however; and can't actually comment much because it is not my field.

According to the consultant, the year 2009 will be a terrestrial bull year and in an Asian country such as Malaysia(due to the strong Chinese influence) whenever the time has come to the start of a new year, be it the Gregorian calendar or the Lunar New Year, the sale of Feng Shui's and astrology's book would be evident.

According to one consultant, the year would get off to a positive start which will be bringing hope in global economic crisis. However, he is also clever to state that the respite would be brief. Probably he knows no prediction can beat the surprises an economic turmoil can do and have in store for us the majority.

I have to admit that I am amaze at how these Feng Shui's consultant work.
They form their opinion by gathering information over the years, guided by one ancient book as a guideline and base to their prediction and later compiled and it sells like hot cakes.

There are a few that make millions by giving talks and advices, publishing books on the twelve months signs, and loads of other things. There was one lady in Malaysia during the early 2000, Mdm Lillian Too.
She was one overrated Feng Shui's consultant and due to that I was moved to purchased one of her book. Well, not as i expected somehow. Same old same old. Perhaps the difference was only the way she elaborated her predictions and explained the environment which was more precise than the rest.

Nevertheless, one would never be on top forever.
Over time one young guy emerged and began to get into the limelight of the local Feng Shui's community.
Let me also tell you here that one more advice given by the I-ching master is that the people should take heed that the weather in Malaysia will be on the wet side throughout the next year, hence there will be heavy rain and floods and that "people should be more cautious over water-related diseases like dengue and chikungunya”.
Hmmmm....Doesn't it speak for itself?

Mind you that the Indians are also big on astrology, even bigger than the Chinese, infact.
The only thing that made the latter more influential was because of the exposure they received and they commercialised it well.
What make me say this?
Well, first of all, even to get married, both man and woman must be astrologically compatible.
Almost every figure and moment are calculated well accordingly before any decision were to be made.
Even in choosing baby's name; one has to go take into consideration the day and time and month of the child's birth.

What makes me tickle a bit was one consultant's advise that those people with serious illnesses to be careful of next year as it is going to be bad year for health adding that they could wear gold or yellow sapphire to attract good fortune...(not attracting jobless bad guys, i hope...wink ..wink)

And also, it looks like there would be some furnitures in the house and office shall be moved around to the right direction again this time around....what about the paint, then?


2008 is drawing its curtain soon.

Another year would pass by. Again.

And life still goes on, with or without one's objective being accomplished or otherwise. With all the year end rush everwhere, my one must item for new year shopping would be of course, a personal planner, family planner and very creative and nice to look at calendar (besides it's actual purpose one need to feed the eyes too).

While having quitting writing a journal since few years back, which help reduces my exasperation looking for beautifully coloured and covered non-dated lined diary, it has never been that easy browsing through all the bookshops in this town in search for a decent family planner.

Looking at the near non-existence of it, I came to a conclusion that people from this part of the globe just don't write journal hence there is no demand for it and leaving people like me having to go through all the bookshops for such item every year end.

For as long as I can remember, I know I started to write my first journal seriously when I was 12 years old; that is because that particular diary is still in my possession.
It is 4x6, green coloured background with faded picture of one young girl with an umbrella sitting down on a bench looking afar. Its interior is light green lined non-dated book.
I got it from a stationary at one Japanese mall somewhere along Old Klang Road in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. The name of that mall is Kimisawa!
Can't believe I can still remember the name of that shopping mall though.
I know that was the first Japanese mall in Malaysia before Yaohan and Jusco came to the country.

Well you see; the above has just conform my believe that keeping a journal dedicatedly would do good for your brain and help you remember well.

When I was still a free soul, it used to be my rituals to open up the box where i stored all my journals and browse thru it every year the night before my birthday and when the year is coming to an end. I will first open the page of my birthday, read what i did that very year and how was my feeling then.

Reading what I wrote when I was 12 and 21 is very warm and pleasant. The way I put my words down, the way I express every other type of my feelings and thoughts about people and the surrounding. It does help a lot in improving my self especially my self esteem besides making it easier for me to rectify my weaknesses and strengths plus some aspect of my life.

Reading about me from being a very quiet and timid young girl when I was younger and how much I hated to be bullied where I later turned into a rather rebellious teenage girl. And from an independent and non-submissive young adult to a more composed person. All thanks to my journals. From which I learnt the bad and good attributes of me by being able to conduct a considerable amount of reality check on my life and the environment I'm in at any current moment.

The only consequences when depending too much on diary to "talk" to, might be, one will end up keeping too much things to one self, and finding talking to people are not sufficient enough. I recall one incident when I was asked by someone why didn't I have any best friend or friends like most people do. My reply was simple; I have and it was my diary.
The one that i can trust with my life and the one that i know won't be "telling" my thoughts to someone else......(..i must had a troubled childhood, you might think no...;-))

On the other hand, having 'compilation' of diaries of your life would be difficult too.

Lets face it, I do think about death; and quite frequent too.
Don't know why really.
Once in a blue moon, I will be thinking about that particular box and the stacks of diaries in it and what I should do with it.
Should I just 'cremated' it and be left with nothing to browse through whenever i want to; or just leave it there, and one day would bound to be open and read by my spouse or somebody else.

Which one?

Guess that will be the longest outstanding decision that I have which never seem to come to an end every year end.

Thursday, 25 December 2008

Africans problems

Africans have problems acclimatising, says minister

PETALING JAYA: Malaysia’s efforts to be an international education hub by first attracting African students has hit a snag.
The Botswana government will reduce the number of students sent to study in Malaysian universities and colleges next year.
Its Education and Skills Develop-ment Minister, Jacob Nkate, said Botswana students who accounted for over 20% of the African students here had trouble acclimatising to the Malaysian culture.

He was quoted in a Botswana English daily Mmegi during a function soon after returning from a visit to Malaysia following the death of three students from the country.
Last month, two Botswana students died after falling from apartment balconies while the third died in a road accident.

It was reported that the students blamed the hostile environment they encountered in Malaysia that forced many of them to turn to alcoholism and other anti-social behaviour.There are more than ,7000 African students here and of that number, 1,635 are from Botswana.
Nkate said some of the students had been given too much liberty by the local institutions.
He added that universities and colleges should not allow Botswana students to sit for examinations unless they had attended 80% of their classes.
Multimedia University (MMU) president Prof Dr Zaharin Yusoff expressed surprise at Nkate’s announcement.

“He visited MMU with his team recently and seemed happy with what we’re doing. He said that things would continue as normal.”
Prof Zaharin admitted that MMU’s requirements for those taking examinations were not very strict, but the university was willing to change the rules for Botswana students should the minister insist upon that.

UCSI University president Peter Ng welcomed the minister’s comments and said this was an opportunity to analyse the current situation.
“Local institutions and our Ministry of Higher Education should take stock of where we have failed and see this as a learning opportunity.
“The ministry should have a built-in system to help international students acclimatise socially, such as arranging host families to look after them,” Ng said.
Sunway University College (SUC) executive director Elizabeth Lee gave the assurance that SUC paid “special attention” to Botswana students, such as arranging additional mathematics classes for them.


hmmm......i wonder what kind of 'hostile' environment those people are talking about that 'forced' their students to alcoholism and other anti-social behaviour. So, people had accidents. People die. So, one should blame it on the environment and not the driver even if the driver was reckless?

I tried not to be judgemental about this story, but i know a lot of people will agree with me that these African students (which ever part of Africa they might come from), are the one that will create some sort of trouble where ever they might be located.

I had once lived in an area near to a private college where one can see numbers of black students. And undoubtedly, they are of quite an 'aggressive ' lot and portray no respect to the locals unlike students from another Asian country such as Indonesia.

Hostile environment are non other than they creating it themselves. Involving in alcoholism and being anti-social; they are the one who chose to take that path.

The Malaysian government should not fret (although the private college would) about this matter at all. Failing to attract them to come in to study in Malaysia would have more positive than negative impact on the social environment of the country. Of course some of them really want to study here but some just come in via student visa and later would be illegally working selling items such as fake watches, small leather-ware item and other stuff.

Perhaps, indirectly, the Botswana's government decision to reduce the outgoing students to Malaysia would have its own significance.

Monday, 22 December 2008

Get real Malaysian women!!

Virtual casanovas cashing in on Malaysian women.

JOHOR BARU: They choose their victims via Internet social networking sites and pretend to be cyber casanovas who start showering their victims with virtual gifts such as flowers, jewellery, plants, pets and even cars.

They then exchange photographs and virtual love letters for some time before the casanovas, usually claiming to be rich hunks from Britain and the Middle East, tell their victims they want to get them a real gift as a way of expressing their commitment.

They promise to send cash of between £1,000 (RM5,200) and £2mil (RM10.4mil) for the women to go on a shopping spree.
The only catch is that the women would have to bank in a substantial amount of money, supposedly into the account of a local forwarding company, as processing fee for the parcel containing the cash to be sent to Malaysia.
The forwarding company may even ask for a few payments, citing all sorts of difficulties in getting the package through.

When the woman begins to feel suspicious and questions her “boyfriend,” the e-mail stops.
Police say many women around the country, some holding respectable jobs like doctors and managers, have been victims of such scams. Thousands of ringgit is believed to have been lost.
One example is a case in Johor where a human resource manager in her 30s lost more than RM30,000.

She befriended a person, claiming to be from Britain, via a social networking site about a month ago.
They exchanged messages regularly and the man told her he wanted to send her £50,000 (RM261,000) for her to go on a shopping spree.
The next day, the woman got a call from a person, claiming to be from a forwarding company, saying she needed to bank in RM4,000 for the parcel to be delivered.
They continued to ask her for money – totalling RM30,000 – over a few days, giving various excuses including exchange rate and other expenses.
The woman suspected something amiss and when she questioned her boyfriend, he did not reply her e-mail.
She then lodged a police report.

Bukit Aman commercial crime investigations director Comm Datuk Koh Hong Sun confirmed there were many cases of cheating not just via the Internet but also through SMSes.
He advised people, especially women, to be careful when asked to transfer money to those they meet online.
“We are checking to see whether local syndicates are working with overseas ones,” he said.--Nelson Benjamin Staronline.

This is funny.

I don't really know whether is it true that these virtual casanovas really got their way to con Malaysian women with "respectable job" such as doctors and managers via internet social networking sites.

If so, i must say that these women are a totally desperados.
How on earth would any level minded person got con via the internet?
With all the on going stories of black monies and such. And i remember there was even a case also initiated via the internet was heard in the high court sometime last last year or so.

And, please, any women who is reading this, just stop having the ideas that any Mat Salleh (white people) or Arabs are millionaires or rich. Not most of them that you see on the street or internet.
They are not really.

Even if they are, they wont be checking you women out via the internet.
They can afford to travel or have their dreamed women sent to them for a weekend round...duhhh....

Perhaps Malaysia women are of the desperados type and gullible.
Perhaps the common Malaysian man cannot provide the luxury they desires.
Perhaps, they thought being held by a Mat Salleh or Arabs man would be the most wonderous thing a woman would ever experience and it all shadowed their judgement.

No ladies.
The Mat Salleh that come to your country to work; most of them are arse who cannot find better job in their own country and knows that the Asian people would kiss their ass for all the mediocre ideas they sell and the women would give themselves freely to them with just one drink.
The one on the internet; they are worst!

The Arabs? Until now I have never heard any good comments about them. Even got one in the family.Fin.

And how on earth can any working-brained women would fall for that trick; sending money as "real gift as a way of expressing their commitment"?. And people, it is not small amount here. It is like between £1,000 (RM5,200) and £2mil (RM10.4mil) for the women to go on a shopping spree. Huh?
Would your boyfriend or even husband (lest he is Sultan of Brunei family members) "donated" to you that kind of amount for shopping?
Get real women.

Guess, there's nothing to be surprise about this kind of stories anyway.

It's the same thing that those Malaysian women, claimed to fall prey when they were caught carrying "i-do- not- know" thing for their overseas trip; alone, whom were caught at the other end's immigration and found carrying dope.

Personally, i do not pity these girls at all; i remember one is still in a prison in Malta, and one more in Japan or China. There was more than twelve similar cases so far; if my memory still serves me well.
Honestly, i think they know what they're up too....
They thought they wont be caught as a first timer.

Even if they honestly don't know, don't they have any hunch at all?

One lucrative work offers that is too good to be true? One that even with similar position back home could not offer as much? And the best part of it was they are a willing victim when without suspicion they agree to be use by their lovey boyfriend to do things that will have them ended up in bars; and lovey bf, free as he can be...searching another target.

I just can't get it....

It is always the money....the one thing that will blind even the most righteous person.

Sunday, 21 December 2008

FBI help sought to catch Kg Baru molester

KUALA LUMPUR: The police have sought the assistance of the US Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) to catch the notorious Kampung Baru molester, who is believed to be connected to the murder of Nurin Jazimin, eight, and the abduction of Sharlinie Mohd Nashar, five.
Inspector-General of Police Tan Sri Musa Hassan said the FBI’s expertise could help find new leads on the cases.

“Among some of the avenues being explored are using special forensics methods to identify the licence-plate number of the motorcycle by enhancing the CCTV footage,” he said.
The CCTV footage reportedly showed a man getting off a motorcycle and walking with a sports bag into a building in PJS 1/48 in Petaling Jaya Utama, where the body of Nurin was found in September last year.
Musa was speaking at a press conference Sunday at a cultural awareness campaign held by the Unity, Culture, Arts and Heritage Ministry at Pusat Latihan Polis at Jalan Semarak, here.
The Kampung Baru molester is believed to have resurfaced after being inactive for almost a year.

On Dec 13, nine-year-old Shaza Niera Azreena Saidon of Kampung Selayang Baru went missing for three hours.
Her description of her abductor bore a startling resemblance to the photofit released by police early this year of the man suspected to have abducted Sharlinie, who has yet to be found, and Nurin.


Do they really need FBI to do that? Gosh.....perhaps indirectly admitting their incapability.

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Cairo oh Cairo

Cairo i must admit is a very interesting place to go to if you're looking for something different or perhaps if you thought that the city you're living in is such a crowded place to be.

Time and time again, i will definitely be filled with the same feeling; an amazement towards their driving skills; man and women alike, their disregards towards tourist or non-Egyptians; perhaps they had too many of them ever since, their overly crowded and dirty capital (Cairo) and Giza areas, their inflation rates and so much more.

Nevertheless, those things will never beat my endless admiration to what the country had to offer in terms of historical artifacts and all the stories behind them.

A three star hotel in the centre of Giza will be displaying their walk-in tariff at an exorbitant USD200 per room when it was only USD50 per person for a room in new 5 star hotel in 6th October city. The prices of some of these hotels keep on increasing but their services are hopeless. With deficiency in English; it made it difficult for foreigner to obtain certain information or ask for hotel related services.

I was told that the hotel prices and other things are getting more expensive in Cairo compared to maybe a year ago. And besides that, if you don't look Egyptian, be prepared to be slashed by the taxi drivers and all tourist area retailers. To avoid paying anything with an added 60 percent on prices of items that you buy especially in the souk area Khan El-Khalili, make sure you don't do eye contact, or just ignore them if you must.
However, should you be interested to purchase, and know it cost less than what they told you; bargain hard, as hard as how they pushed you into purchasing it.

My significant half was furious when he was charged in a USD for few T-shirt when the items was already in his hands and he was about to pay, whilst initially during negotiation he asked the seller a couple of time and told that the prices would it be in Egyptian pound.

He dare not provoked the seller much after an attempt to pay in Egyptian pound was declined by the persistence and hard selling chap. Because of my husband's nice and non-confrontational nature we walked away paying a rather expensive price for round neck shirts.

It was his first experience in this country, so be it. One should learn from experiences. And tricks and tactics these Egyptians will use to get what they want.

One funny incident i came across at a stall in the Citadel area near the Alabaster Mosque when we stop to get something for little Leeyah. We took two bars of small Cadbury chocolate and asked for the price; the man said 6 pound, then i saw one even smaller bar and took it, but when we wanted to pay, it became 15 pound! And the funny bit was when one Chinese/Korean chap looked at me in bemusement after the man told him he gotta pay 10 pound for one cone ice-cream and this chap asked me is it really 10 pound. I told him, if he really need it, pay for it otherwise ditch it back in the fridge.

Amazingly these people (the locals) would not feel bad overcharging tourist and especially those Arabs from the GCC countries. And through conversation with one local guy, it is confirm that these two cannot get along. The Egyptian will say they're snobbish, and the Arabs will call them cheapskate.

Despite my advise to their so-called 'help you take photos', my husband was once again being cornered to paying a man, sitting down with his camel for rides but actually his actual job description was sitting down smoking while waiting for tourist 'brought' over to him by his alliances for photo shoots. At first it seems he was just doing a favour but when he refused to let go of the camera and keep on asking to post near this and that, i realised this was a trap but we're too deep to escape by then.

The bad thing about these people was, they wont hesitate to ask for more when you pay what you think would be enough, and they can ask you later, "are you happy my brother", "I'm happy when you're happy"..... after putting bits and pieces, we worked out that he actually had some 'agreement' with our horse-carriage driver...duuhhhh......

One should compile and write a guidebook on tricks and tactics used by some Egyptians towards gullible tourist.

Saturday, 6 December 2008


I have to log something about yet another internet related experience.

Actually sometime ago i was invited by a friend via email to view her profile and later perhaps i might want to join the facebook community. Of course this kind of thing doesn't attract my attention that much. Moreover, having had my hands full with works commitment and other obligations i deleted the message without even opening it.

Now, a couple of years later, after receiving few invitations from different people to view their profile on facebook, it finally got me interested to know why these people were so on this facebook thing.
Moreover being in the opposite lifestyle than i had years ago, adding with time on my side, i viewed and later accepted the friend's request.

Tonight, and few other nights already since i joined the facebook community somewhere in October, i have to admit it; im hooked. I am spending more time browsing the facebook community than any other site and will be off to slumber only after 4am.
This is a craze i must say.
In fact i even read a write up by someone recently that Facebook finally hits the mainstream.

It seems that it has been growing steadily on a global basis, and suggests through the data that facebook adoption is deep and widespread. The writer also mentioned that surprisingly it is noted that in North America the working-age users is the fastest growing demographic, while the teen segment is growing much more slowly.

I must agree with him completely.

This facebook thing is much more interesting way of communicating.
It is a blend of conventional email, and chat room and photo sharing platform. It is more of a latte compare to black coffee.
Amazingly, this facebook will enable you to tracked down your friends or perhaps people you have lost contact with over time.
Tonight i managed to get in touch with my secondary peers which i have not been in contact for nearly twenty years.
I told myself, this is the advantage of the internet and having time in your hand.

The fact that one of the promising budding politician, advertised himself on the facebook perhaps to garnered some support from the www crowd shows that this will be a new platform of reaching out both to the people you want to connect with and to the rest of the world.

Friday, 5 December 2008

Digging Up Malaysia's Racial Past

Written by Philip Bowring
Wednesday, 16 May 2007

A new book presents the view that 1969 race riots were instigated by ambitious Malay politicians. Now it seems the book will be banned by the government.

Thirty-eight years on, the traumatic ethnic riots of May 13, 1969 in Malaysia remain as much a subject of official censorship as the events of June 4, 1989 in China.
Now a new book by a Malaysian Chinese academic is on the point of being officially banned for suggesting that May 13 was the occasion for what amounted to a coup against the independence leader and Prime Minister Tunku Abdul Rahman by his United Malays National Organisation colleagues who were pushing pro-Malay policies.

Officials of Malaysia’s Internal Security Ministry Tuesday confiscated 10 copies of the book from a Kuala Lumpur bookstore, advising the store not to sell it as it may be banned. According to a letter issued by ministry officials, the book is suspected of being an “undesirable publication.”

What happened on May 13 remains highly relevant to UMNO’s position as the leader of the Barisan National, the alliance of race-based parties that has ruled the country since independence 50 years ago.

“Declassified Documents on the Malaysian riots of 1969” by Dr. Kua Kia Soong, the principal of New Era College, is based not directly on Malaysian sources but on now-open British documents held at the Public Records Office in Kew Gardens, near London. These consist of contemporary British diplomatic and intelligence reports which suggest that the riots were not spontaneous acts of communal violence, as is constantly alleged by UMNO, but were fanned by Malay elements, with support from the army and police, wanting to discredit the accommodating prime minister and impose a much more rigorous Malay agenda.
One British document concluded that the goal was to “formalize Malay dominance, sideline the Chinese and shelve Tunku.”

The official Malaysian government version of events was that the riots were sparked by opposition parties “infiltrated by communist insurgents” following huge opposition gains in the election. Although the UMNO-led Alliance, the predecessor of the Barisan National, retained an overall majority, it lost its two thirds majority and its control of Selangor state was threatened. Certainly there was much celebrating among the mainly Chinese opposition parties at the election result, which angered Malay politicians who sensed their political dominance was under threat.

By the time the riots were over, official figures said 196 people had been killed, 6,000 made homeless and more than 700 buildings destroyed or damaged.
Non-Malays in particular have long believed that though there was violence on both sides, it was a mostly one-sided affair with some Malay politicians, notably Selangor Chief Minister Harun Idris, encouraging mobs to attack Chinese areas and that the security forces initially did little to prevent violence. This is largely confirmed by contemporary reports such as those of Far Eastern Economic Review correspondent Bob Reece.

Kua’s thesis suggests that there was a grander political design behind the episode, which from the beginning was intended to create a new political agenda and new leadership. He attributes this to a younger Malay group dissatisfied with the aristocratic, pro-British the Tunku.
In any event, the Tunku effectively stepped aside as emergency powers to rule by decree were (temporarily) placed in the hands of a National Operations Council headed by his deputy Tun Abdul Razak – father of current deputy prime minister Najib Abdul Razak.
The Tunku remained prime minister until September 1970 but had little authority any more. In 1971 he also stepped down as president of UMNO after virulent criticism by the Malay “Young Turks,” headed by Mahathir Mohamad, the future Prime Minister.

The same year the government enunciated the New Economic Policy and began aggressive affirmative action programs to advance the economic and educational level of Malays.
However, while the consequences of May 13 may be clear, there are disagreements about Kua’s thesis even among those who attribute the riots to Malay politicians.
For example, Dr Syed Husin Ali also a respected academic and deputy head of the opposition Keadilan Party, has suggested that while some UMNO figures used the events as an opportunity to sideline the Tunku and set out a pro-Malay agenda, it was not planned as such.

In other words, Razak and others took advantage of the situation which arose after the election and the appearance of Malay mobs to grab the reins of power from the Tunku, with whom they were dissatisfied, but that it was not premeditated. Syed also takes issue with Kua’s view that they represented an aspirant Malay capitalist class when most had traditional and feudal links.

"Bookstores have been advised not to sell Kua’s book and a formal ban looks likely on the grounds that it will stir up racial animosities, which it could well do in the short run. However, from a broader perspective it is hard to see how a multi-racial, multi-religious Malaysia can flourish if events such as May 13 can only be discussed in private, while the public is fed a distorted official version in order to sustain the legitimacy of UMNO politicians. "


Enough said.

Thursday, 4 December 2008


He would never stop at anything eventhough the curtain is drawing really soon; all for his own personal and family gains.
I would think that he is the most corrupted leader, having to lead the country for only two terms and managed to create such a ripple in the country's political arena.

He is to me the most unreasonable person, having said a lot of things that he'll deny later, having his whole bunch of family involved direct and indirectly in the country's affair and the list goes on....

Zaid Ibrahim and UMNO - Che Det

Nobody can run away from making wrong choices or wrong decision in life some point of their living years.

Snippets - Zaid Ibrahim and UMNO - Che Det

Tuesday, 2 December 2008

Art Exibition

One of my good friend is having his fifth solo exibition soon.
Too bad i wont be able to attend.

To view some of his latest works;


Congrats on your yet another solo exibition.
Hopefully more to come.

Mental Disorders

Today is one of the day in my life im feeling rather cranky and very shitty for no reason.
Checking the calendar, it wont be until the next two weeks for my cycle to come and greet me again. And i should be feeling happy because i'll be travelling to my all time favourite destination; Egypt, again. Smelling the centuries old tombs and getting closer and touching what have been touched and walked upon by people of thousands years ago...and Ramses and Nefertiti and the museum.

And i still cant figure out why my feeling this way.
I sometimes wonder why women are made of these; hormones, too much of it what im saying.
God is great. But honestly, it's just a wee bit too much to take.
Lucky thing im not made of tears. Cant bear seeing women shedding tears whether they're sad or happy. Don't really understand why one need to cry when they're happy though.

See, i have been called 'windy' when i was much younger due to my rapid changes moods....and what im trying to indicate here is; nope, im not nearing any sort of 'stages' yet. Perhaps getting a little bit old despite my brain telling me that im just enjoying my late twenties early thirties time of my life (try figure it out people...).

Anyway, reading always help fetch me outa this depression well. Hence, below i have something for people like me <( or for people who doesn't admit that they're nearing or at the brink of that well too.....:-)>
And in a way, im also admitting that im facing a very minor mood/mental disorder. Don't everybody?

Mood Disorders
Also called: Affective Disorders

A mood disorder is a mental illness characterized primarily by mood swings or an abnormally high or low mood. Most mood disorders are defined and diagnosed by the occurrence of one or more mood episodes, or periods of abnormal happiness or sadness. Such episodes are not mood disorders in themselves.

Mood disorders include major depression, dysthymia and bipolar disorder, among others. Major depression and dysthymia involve periods of sadness and lack of pleasure or interest in normal activities as well as fatigue. Bipolar disorder includes episodes of both depression and mania, which is an elevated mood of (euphoria), combined with increased self-esteem, racing thoughts and reckless behavior or impulsive activity. If severe, episodes of high and low mood can involve psychotic symptoms, such as hallucinations and delusions.

The causes of mood disorders are not completely understood. However, a chemical imbalance in the brain seems to play a major role in their development. Brain chemicals called neurotransmitters convey messages between the nerves. Abnormalities in the regulation of these neurotransmitters are believed to cause alterations in mood. Mood disorders also appear to be linked to genetics. Individuals who have relatives with a history of a mood disorder have a greater risk of developing a mood disorder.

The diagnosis of a mood disorder involves a physical examination by a physician and a mental health evaluation by a physician or a mental health professional. Mood episodes or mood disorders can be triggered or imitated by other illnesses, substance abuse or side effects of medications, so a physician must rule out these potential causes first. The mental health evaluation includes a complete history of symptoms, including when they began, how long they have lasted and how severe they are. It is also noted whether the patient has experienced these symptoms before and, if so, whether and how they were treated.

Depressive mood disorders are typically treated with antidepressants. Mood stabilizing drugs, particularly lithium, are the primary medications for bipolar disorder. Patients with mood disorders may also benefit from different types of therapy, including psychotherapy and cognitive behavior therapy (CBT), in addition to medications. Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) may be used in severe cases or in cases where medications are not effective or are not safe to use (e.g., pregnancy).


Saturday, 29 November 2008

Zaid Ibrahim makes appearance at PKR congress

SHAH ALAM: Former minister Datuk Zaid Ibrahim who is an Umno member caused a stir Saturday by showing up at the PKR national congress opening.
He however denied that he had joined PKR or any other opposition party.
“Yes, yes, I am still in Umno. I have not been sacked yet,” he said Saturday when approached by reporters.("I have not been sacked" or you're actually buddy buddy with the 'FELLA' in PKR ?)

On Friday night, he was seen at the DAP victory dinner in Penang which fuelled talk that he was going to join the Opposition.
Zaid who recently received a show-cause letter from Umno said he was still waiting for the response from the party.

On why he was present at the PKR congress, Zaid said it was because he was invited to it and because he was interested in politics.(Yeah, right brother!!Everybody believe that)
On whether it showed he supported Pakatan Rakyat, he said repeatedly “it just shows I’m interested in politics.” (Very intelligent answer, eh?)

On whether it was right for him to be present at a congress which openly slammed Umno, Zaid said, that was normal in politics.
“The Opposition is not an enemy. They are just people with different views so I don’t regard them as an enemy. They ‘bantai’ (slam) Umno and Umno slams them. It’s part of the game,” he said.
On whether he had any fear that Umno would now be forced to take action against him for showing up at the opening of the PKR congress which featured Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim as the keynote speaker, he said, “I think I don’t have that much fear. I fear more for my health. I am not well.” (God bless you)

Others present at the opening of the congress were DAP’s Lim Kit Siang, Karpal Singh, Teresa Kok, Dr Chen Man Hin, PAS vice-president Datuk Husam Musa, Perak Mentri Besar Datuk Nizar Jamaluddin, PAS secretary-general Datuk Kamaruddin Jaafar and SAPP president Datuk Yong Teck Lee.
SAPP recently left Barisan Nasional but it has not joined Pakatan Rakyat as yet.--Staronline


Like always; hearsay in Malaysia, is never a hearsay at all.......

Wednesday, 26 November 2008

Negarakuku lad now in trouble with school

CONTROVERSY seems to follow rapper Wee Meng Chee wherever he goes, reported major Chinese dailies.

The three newspapers, Sin Chew Daily, Nanyang Siang Pau and China Press reported that Wee, who caused an uproar with his parody of the Negaraku last year, had been issued a legal notice by his alma mater, Chung Hwa High School.
The notice was to remove his latest recording from YouTube entitled “The ABC Time of Teacher Khoo.

The school in Muar had demanded that the recording, which used the school as the backdrop while criticising the Malaysian Chinese education system, be removed.
The school said it had not given permission to Wee to use the school as a backdrop in his recording.
China Press reported that Wee had been served the legal papers at his home in Muar, Johor, on Monday.

Asked how he felt about the legal papers, Wee said that he was not surprised.
In his blog, Wee said the legal papers had helped raise awareness about his latest effort and problems faced by independent school students.

Criticising the local Chinese education system as being incomplete, Wee said it would force Chinese school graduates to look for alternatives to make a living.
Wee, who is better known as “Namewee”, made the controversial Negarakuku video while he was studying Mass Communication in Taiwan’s Ming Chuan University.--Staronline











There are certain things in life that you know you must do and like to do; whether you like it or not.
I have a few, and more of the 'don't like'.

One thing for sure is; i don't really like people.
(well, i have seen a movie where this chap said the same thing; I HATE PEOPLE, so im not in the ship alone, as what the other half proclaim)

I'm not a self-centered person.
I really do not think so.
I'm easily loved (wink wink) and liked by those who are adventurous enough to hear my thoughts. Infact im quite flambouyant (probably one disposition that i acquired as a façade to my actual self).

But one thing for sure, the very reason that i dont really like people was that they (people) tend to make me NOT be me. In other simple word - pretentious.
I hate being pretentious. I speak my mind:- loudly at times, hence i am quite verbal ofcourse the thoughts will be filtered thru the the cerebral part of me before being chanelled out of my mouth (unlike some PEOPLE..(duhhh.....again)).
I know being to vocal has it repercussion and especially when it came from a mouth of a person of 'my race'.

To me it is always best to make it crystal clear. In both your opinion and thoughts about whatever you feel related to.
Never keep in your heart and head your grumpiness towards some things.
It will be easier on one hand but hard on the other because PEOPLE usually and naturally DON'T like hearing straight off things about them or the things that they do and whatnot.
It will be easier because should anything happen; at least you've laid your card on the table.
Like it or not; those concerned will have to take it; digest it and swallow it.

By that it will also help you distinguished your friend and foes.
It will make your life easier to sift all those unwanted creeps out of your life. Imagine....

Living in a close-up community far away from your motherland (where you'd have your family and friends whom you'd know and who knows you well inside) you'll bound to meet new jackheads every now and then.

I know it is called socialising, but the thing is, i cannot be my true self when im around certain group of people. I'm just not taken by their way of mingling and 'socialising'.

I have tried to be myself and telling me, that i need to be nice to them; perhaps some people needed more time to understand the 'planet' that i came from.
I tried.
I do received cold shoulders from some of these people.
I tried again; because i remember some advice; you gotta give it a try after the first one failed.
It is the same when you gave a salam before entering into someone's house; if by the third, no one in the house reply to it, even though the door is wide open; you better get make a move.

Hence, today, after giving it a thought i told myself; okay; you have tried.
Not your fault if these morons just want to behave like how they do towards you.
My life still goes on.

Tuesday, 25 November 2008

Cancer survivors dismayed by blanket ban on yoga


PETALING JAYA: Many Muslim cancer survivors who practise yoga to promote general wellbeing are disappointed and confused over the National Fatwa Council’s edict on the ancient form of exercise.

National Cancer Society of Malaysia’s advisor Datuk Zuraidah Atan said she had been inundated with calls from the survivors who were confused and apprehensive over the edict or fatwa.
“An overreaching fatwa like this is not good for them as unnecessary worry can have a negative effect on them psychologically and physically. Some are already feeling guilty for practising it.
“There is a need for the Fatwa Council to explain their edict properly so that Muslims who practise yoga, including cancer survivors are not made to feel guilty,” she said.

Zuraidah said the council organised a weekly free yoga session for cancer survivors, especially those who were over 40 as a form of relaxation and breathing exercise.
“Besides yoga, we also have qi gong sessions. Is the Fatwa Council going to ban qi gong, too, because it has its origins in Buddhism? Then how about line dancing? We also organise that as a form of light exercise for cancer survivors,” she said.

She said yoga, qi gong and line dancing were good for cancer survivors because they were group dynamics which also helped promote positive thinking and unity among survivors of different race and religion.
She said there were many levels of yoga and only yoga in its purest form involved religious chanting.
“Most Muslims know this. The yoga that is being taught in yoga centres nationwide only concentrates on techniques and has nothing to do with the promotion of Hinduism,” she added.
The National Fatwa Council on Saturday declared that yoga is haram (prohibited) in Islam and Muslims are banned from practising it.

Chairman Datuk Dr Abdul Shukor Husin said yoga had been practised by the Hindu community for thousands of years and incorporated physical movements, religious elements together with chants and worshipping, with the aim of being one with God.
He noted that while merely doing the physical movements of yoga without the worshipping and chanting might not be against religious beliefs, Muslims should avoid practising it altogether as doing one part of yoga would lead to another.

FATWA Council Bans Yoga for Muslims

No yoga for Muslims in Perak

IPOH: Muslims in Perak will be barred from practising yoga following the National Fatwa Council’s edict that the practice is haram (prohibited).
Perak Religious Department director Datuk Jamry Sury said the state would abide by the decision of the council to disallow Muslims from practising yoga.

“We will be meeting on Dec 9 to make a formal announcement on the matter,” said Jamry who is also Perak Malay Customs and Religious Council secretary.
However, the department has not identified any Muslim in Perak who practises yoga, he said yesterday.

In Petaling Jaya, Malaysia Hindu Sangam president Datuk A. Vaithilingam said the council must respect the sensitivities and feelings of people of other religions in Malaysia while giving guidance to Muslims.
“Many Hindus have been deeply disturbed by the council’s announcement. To declare this ancient practice haram and say that it can ‘corrupt’ a person is very hurtful and demeaning,” he said in a statement yesterday.

The council on Saturday issued an edict banning Muslims from practising yoga on the grounds that it was inappropriate for Muslims as it involved chants and acts of worship of the god of another religion.--STARONLINE

My word for this is BULL.

Cut the crap people.

There are other important things you guys can think about such as 'legalised' prostitution in Malaysia, gambling, and letting those sickos sentenced to only jail after raping, sodomising and killing small girls.

Some other use of rosary

Man charged with unnatural sex using prayer beads

SHAH ALAM: A Kuala Lumpur City Hall general worker pleaded not guilty in the Sessions Court here Tuesday to committing carnal intercourse against the order of nature on a beautician without her consent.

Kamarul Zaman Abdul Rashid, 44, who wore green Baju Melayu was charged under Section 377CA of the Penal Code which is punishable with up to 20 years in jail and whipping if convicted.

He was alleged to have inserted prayer beads and finger into the woman’s vagina at a house No.6, Block G (E Tambahan), Kampung Melayu Sri Kundang, Kuang, Rawang, at 11.30am, Nov 15.
Kamarul Zaman was arrested on Nov 19.
In applying for bail, defence lawyer Simon Sabapathy said Kamarul Zaman was married and had to provide for his five children aged between three and 19 years as well as his parents.

Assistant Public Prosecutor Salwa Asmary Abdul Rahim objected to the application and said that if Kamarul Zaman was allowed bail, the amount should be high and additional conditions should be imposed.
The reason she gave was that such a case occurred frequently and could make the people worried.

Judge Wan Mohd Norisham Wan Yaakob later fixed the bail at RM6,000 with one surety and ordered the accused to surrender his passport to the court and to report to a nearby police station every month.
He also warned Kamarul Zaman not to harass the victim and set March 10 next year for trial.

-- Bernama

Hahahahaha.....this really had me laughing like crazy.
Good god.
I'm sure my intentions to learn psychology would be all beneficial and just in time; with all these maniacs living around us.
Things that made me wonder though;

1) why in the world she allows him to insert it 'there', and how can that be without her consent, when she is the one, i would assume so, pulled her pants down for him voluntarily.

2) he might want to check out some other sex toys than using prayers beads/rosary

3) typical of guilt-ridden morons; baju melayu/baju kurung would be their choice for hearing
probably hoping to get reduced sentences, duuhhhh........(like typical drama melayu)

4) this is why man are given the privilege to marry more than one (no, not for inserting beads, dumb!)

Sunday, 23 November 2008

Umat Islam diharam amalkan Yoga secara sistematik
22/11/2008 1:20pm

PUTRAJAYA 22 Nov. — Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan hari ini mengharamkan umat Islam mengamalkan yoga secara sistematik, yang melibatkan unsur-unsur fizikal dan spiritual kerana ia bertentangan dengan syariat Islam.

Pengerusinya Datuk Dr Abdul Shukor Husin bagaimanapun berkata, amalan fizikal iaitu senaman dalam yoga, tanpa adanya unsur-unsur mentera dan pemujaan pada zahirnya tidak menjadi kesalahan.
Namun, katanya, ia tidak digalakkan kerana dikhuatiri boleh menghakis akidah seseorang Muslim memandangkan ia merupakan salah satu komponen daripada keseluruhan amalan yang diharamkan itu.“Amalan yoga yang berasal dari masyarakat Hindu mempunyai tiga peringkat, peringkat pertama adalah fizikal iaitu senaman, peringkat kedua adalah mentera dan pemujaan bagi mendapatkan ketenangan dan peringkat ketiga adalah penyatuan diri dengan tuhan.
“Oleh itu ahli muzakarah bersetuju memutuskan bahawa apa jua jenis atau bentuk amalan yang mengandungi unsur-unsur tersebut adalah dilarang dan bertentangan dengan ajaran Islam,” katanya kepada pemberita di sini hari ini.

Abdul Shukor berkata perkara itu diputuskan dalam persidangan Anggota Majlis Muzakarah Fatwa Kebangsaan ke-83 yang bersidang 22-24 Okt lalu di Kota Bharu, Kelantan, dan akan dipanjangkan kepada majlis-majlis agama negeri untuk diwartakan.
Selain Malaysia, amalan yoga telahpun diharamkan di Singapura dan Mesir, katanya.
Abdul Shukor berkata, pada peringkat ini, program kesedaran mengenai amalan itu akan diperluaskan ke seluruh negara melalui Jabatan Kemajuan Islam Malaysia (Jakim).
Beliau turut menasihatkan masyarakat Islam supaya berhati-hati dan berwaspada dengan perkara-perkara yang boleh memesongkan akidah, serta perlu mengkaji secara mendalam mengenai sesuatu amalan sebelum melakukannya.

Beliau berkata terdapat banyak amalan lain dalam Islam yang boleh dilakukan bagi menjaga kesihatan dan mendapatkan ketenangan termasuk mengamalkan sembahyang dan berzikir.
Yoga merupakan satu pakej senaman yang telah diamalkan sejak 3,000 tahun sebelum Masihi dan dikatakan boleh melambatkan penuaan, mengurangkan risiko kencing manis, lelah dan penyakit jantung.

This is what these typical arse in Malaysia's government (ministries) would think of the Melayu in general; easily manipulated and influenced, which later would result to them becoming a murtad or kafir.
Perhaps their own families or relatives are those of whom would be easily influenced;hence it is natural that they themselves would think like that and that it is dangerous to be associated or doing some exercise which rooted from another belief or religion.

What would they think of tai-chi? Or perhaps one of the quite well known Chinese traditional medicinal practice called ; Chi-qong by one Malay doctor?

It makes me wonder whether dont these dumbhead conduct thorough research before throwing out this sorta decree to the public, i.e. the "easily' influenced Muslim in Malaysia. In other words; the Melayus?

The actual scenario in Malaysia, in particular the Klang Valley is; these yoga houses; they aren't the one that conduct those ritual yoga. Most of them are yoga classes conducted sometimes by non-Hindu instructors, at well known fitness centres or a private place in some exxlusive area such as Sri Hartamas or Petaling Jaya.
It is more of a 'lifestyle' for the middle high income and yuppies.
Fitness centres used to be the lifestyle and by having a member of one fitness house, that would make you doing the 'IN' thing. And these things are only understood by the non-kampung folks so to say.

There was one place in the Subang Jaya area where they published an advertisement on yoga classes. It was perhaps seven years back and me and my sister went there but after sitting down for half an hour to enquire about their facilities and practises; we declined.

The reasons being;
1) The classes conducted by one yogi person
2) No fees required but we need to contribute to their some sort of spritual funds on a monthly basis.
3) They gave us the idea that this particular place conduct spiritual tpye of yoga.

What did we do?
We did not go for it.
Because perhaps we are smarter and not easily influenced Muslims aka Melayu, unlike those who came out with the fatwa.

This stupid fatwa made me reflect back to many years before when there was a little bit of hu-ha in the print media in regards to the action taken by Information Ministry of Malaysia in banning one movie/documentary about Tibetan monks and their faith. It was supposed to be aired for the Wesak day. The reason for the ban was;
WHATELSE, if not the same bloody reason they would always use; deminishing the akidah of Muslims (in Malaysia). I mean, hell, why cant we, the Muslim learn about some other faith which contradicting to the government's move; that allows a day off for certain states in Malaysia.
If the government are willing enough to give a day off for those who celebrates the Wesak day; then why cant these people watch on tv the root of their faith.
What is wrong about learning.
There are non Muslim in universities around the world that do Islamic studies.
It doesnt make them a 'murtad' to their won faith.

I myself have been into a church for their morning mass, had been to the Siamese temple in Petaling Jaya and that does not make me wanna change my name to Lina Joy!!!
I rather lose the race im carrying now, than losing my religion.
I might not be your next door typical Melayu girl because i am not and i am not proud to be one.
What more with those skumbags keep coming out with such fatwas.

These are the people that would give Islam the worst ever image than it already have been suffering globally.

Be realistic people.

Friday, 21 November 2008

The Scribe A Kadir Jasin: Melakar Cerita Suka Duka

The Scribe A Kadir Jasin: Melakar Cerita Suka Duka

Unfortunately, those with brains like yours Dato' will never ever become politician.

Full transcript of Razak's Q&A


PoliTIKUS(ie.Melayu politician=rat in the eye of other race)

It has been like what,...3 or 4 months i had not post anything regarding Malaysia political scenario. Actually i'm not bothered much as there had not been any unexpected circumstances or changes that is prominent enough to talk or write about.

It has been the same old bullshit played innovatively by all the freakin clowns of Malaysian politicians namely the top two jokers. Hip Hip Hooray.... pusing pusing tang tu jugak.
The best part is Najib's statement that he 'pledged' to continue the Pak Lah's new way of Islam; the Hadhari Islam...(what ever he thought that it is better the the one brought down to us Muslims by Allah (swt) thru his messenger prophet Muhammad (saw).

Perhaps that pledge must be his silence cum invisible nod to Pak Lah saying "don't squeeze my balls too hard Pak"..or..."you scratch my back i scratch yours"....or better still; you squeeze mine, i squeez yours! Duhhhh.....
What the hell?
It must be because Pak Lah and the gang worked something out and got Najib's buddy out of the four walls during his tenure cause, Najib cant be doing it while he is at the top; hence, Pak Lah in return would be managing the whole jinbangs while Najib will permanently be the puppet and mind you, he will make sure of this until his beloved and most powerful SIL Mr Beruk taken into office of some important ministry. And the story goes on......

Cut all those craps.
I hate the political upheaval in Malaysia; the land that has always been a favourite for people any where to take control and administered. From the British, to Japanese, Portuguese and not forgetting the Communist. Now, we have an insider job; namely the other minority race.....ehem...perhaps they are trying to behave like parasite?

I know my father is good in killing all sorta parasites.....in his garden i mean.

Btw, i would like to append in another posting today, one poetry (puisi) by Kadir Jasin, a well known person in print media ever since. I love what he has to say about the country i was born and raised, perhaps be buried too.


Najib Never Met Altantuya

KUALA LUMPUR: Deputy Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak never met Mongolian Altantuya Shaariibuu, says Abdul Razak Baginda.

“I implore all of you and the public to stop spreading lies about the DPM and his wife. I know Datuk Seri Najib and Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor have never met Altantuya,” said Abdul Razak who was acquitted of abetment in Altantuya’s murder.
“Those who have spread such lies can never produce any authentic evidence because there is none.
“The truth is the truth and nothing can change the truth,” he told a packed press conference yesterday.

When asked how he knew Najib was not involved, Najib’s former political analyst smiled, looked at his lawyers and then replied: “I just know.”
Abdul Razak said he has had no contact with Najib since his release from prison and was more interested in getting his life back on track.
He also denounced the “lies” that Altantuya was involved in certain deals, such as the submarine deal.

Meeting the press: Razak holding a tape recorder to make a point that speculation will not stop even after his press conference in Kuala Lumpur yesterday.
“There have been all sorts of stories and insinuations about the link between the deceased and some deals. But everyone is lazy these days and don’t check their facts.
“The purported deal was signed in June 2002. I first met the deceased in November or December 2004. I fail to see the connection but it went on and on. These are malicious lies,” he added.
Abdul Razak, who expressed his deepest sympathies to Altantuya’s family for their loss, said he was coming out to tell the truth because “I do not want to turn a blind eye and allow the liars to prevail.”
“I am caught in the ‘damned-if-you-do-and-damned-if-you-don’t’ situation. But to be indifferent is to be irresponsible,” he said.
Razak plans to do his doctorate in Britain -- Staroline

Like i always say; tidak ada angin, pokok tak akan bergoyang

Thursday, 20 November 2008

Sunday, 16 November 2008

Colour and Canvass

See, i had always wanted to start painting again but there would always be something that will cropped up and stop me from doing so.
The last painting i painted was like umpteen years ago; it was an abstract a mix of light green and mostly yellows painting of a woman sitting down with folded legs. It was a birthday present for a good friend.
Painting is like a rush of feeling, or perhaps more of a desire. Now i am really in the moods. I really wish that i can lock myself up in that room which me and my other half agree to be turn it into our arty room. Unfortunately, as i am now a mother of one young girl at the age of attention seeking; i think i will have to put my intentions aside, again.
One; it is because of her being sticky and two; i dare to bet that whatever rush i felt prior to starting to paint, will be put off by her screaming or crying wanting the acrylic tube in my hand or aiming for the colour plate that look so tantalizing to her.
Those time it was much easier to express my feelings and thought as i was a free soul. Nevertheless, as one grow, the responsibilities and whatnot will grow alongside. Especially with work commitments; my hands are quiet full.
I have always love to paint.
I love art. Having not to complete my Art degree due to some reasons, it has never been a hindrance because art itself is very subjective.
My forever dream and vision was to have a small full glass room with the sun shining in full to give me the brightness that i need to paint beautiful coloured paintings of still life or scenery of my dream. And it must be near to a beach too.....(wink.. wink... so much so it sounded so stereotype of a lonely painter in any melodramatic drama)
Now and again, the only thing that i will start with is.... thinking when will i start to put colours on the canvass that has been waiting for me since quite early this year.....hhmmmmm...........

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

Internet oh internet

Living in this internet and world wide web era does give people a sort of dependency towards certain subject; in which if you failed to get something done via it, you're gonna be a bit crankier; me at least.
Just like when your mobile is out of battery when you're really desperate to make that important call or when you store all your contact number and did not have another back-up; and your phone went missing or stolen.

My router have had some problem lately; which i thought it might due to the weather whatnot. But after really failing to log in to the explorer, and double checking the wifi near my place, we finally decided to call the technician which only managed to come the second day after we lodged the report.

Thus, i've been unable to confirm an appointment made via email, and being so dependable on the net, i didn't even jot down the phone number of that person which we intend to meet to view some items.
I also have been depending on SKYPE for all my business and personal international phone call, so for that two days im unable to get certain things done as planned.

Same goes to blogspot.com when they'd advice fellow bloggers to back-up our logs and so on. I haven't done that because im just very lazy to have to go one by one on the method of doing so, and all these html terms; they are jargon to me.

Im quite satisfied after the nice technician came by to fix my router and even before he left the house i have started to log in to SKYPE and ready to make some phone calls.

Saturday, 8 November 2008

Old Hellos

I guess today is a remembrance day....remembering me, i mean.
Today in the spin of less than two hours i received two calls from two different person.
The first one was from my brother cum Bapak, Pak Bikong in Jakarta. I have not met him more than two years although the last time we were in touch was like four months ago.
Anyway, it is also my intentions of giving him a call since he sometimes texted me asking my whereabouts and updates.
His call was more of a response to my telepathic calling i would say.

But the second call was the most unexpected one.
See, i am the sort of person that will do spring cleaning of my house, wardrobe and not forgetting my mobile phonebook. I simply hate to see many names unrelated to my current life although sometime these names will somehow cropped up in head or sometime out of the blue they will call me asking my being and whatnot.

But this person that called me just now, I knew him while I was handling the one of the local power station project in Port Dickson (PD) like seven years ago....gosh, that was quite some time!
He was the project engineer and I was the contractor in charge thus we work very closely for like a year and a half. I still remember driving down to PD on a daily basis although I rented an apartment at one of the hotel there. I just can't bring myself staying there alone, and the food was sucks. Moreover driving up and down daily will take me less than an hour to get to the project site.

 It was more of an enjoyable projects because, one; the site was near beach area, and two; because we mutually connected thus making work easier.  So, it's fun all day long, even-though there would be some working issue popped up once in a while; it's easier to settle it understandably.

So, we spoke for a short while because i was on roaming but making sure that we keep in touch again, we exchange emails; even though i cannot guarantee the lasting of it...
Whatever it is, it was nice hearing from someone you knew long time ago and that person just out of the blue drop you a line; which i can say brighten up my day a bit.

Perhaps, i should just leave my phonebook un-touch, except for those really need to be deleted, and drop a line to some of them sometimes......

Friday, 7 November 2008

Im desperate for assistance here.........

Im desperate for some sort of assistance here.....
It's taking too much of my time trying to figure out the freakin problem and it looks like im really wasting my precious time here.....now....


Either i must have meddle with some of the setting or the blogspot is just giving me some headache. I cant seems to view my current log again....

And i cant even do via bookmarks as i used to.
Tell me which help centre, especially the one that you just post and hope that'll be some sort of reply that really works?


Thursday, 6 November 2008

Ageless Beauty

I read with much surprised one woman's journey to beauty ended up with her going 6 feet under!
It not my intentions to be mean but come to think of it...what was it all for besides her own satisfaction, perhaps; which also derives from receiving comments from friends and also making sure that the husband will stay put although the eyes will absolutely be straying still...

You go down to the hospital, don the operation room's uniform and be put lying down on the bed, hoping that when you're awake, you'll have ;

1. the bridge of your nose will be higher and the nostril will be smaller
2. sunked-in cheek
3. pointed chin
4. axed double chin
5. lest droopy eyes

But, that is if you wake up, AGAIN....

Gosh, i mean, im a woman. It does come to my thought too, perhaps to have some eyebrow lift, but i tell you it will only be in that thought area, forever (i hope). I will not have myself going thru some pain around my face; intentionally, for the sake of beauty.
How long can it last anyway?
Of course, i will also not let some dermatologist jab my face with that B thing. I wouldn't want to look like some sort of clown with plastic-stretched face walking around feeling proud that i look younger than my years. Duhhhh......

Yes, i admit to spending thousands for beauty purpose. And everytime after swiping my card d'blanc, i swear that i will not again pay that much for those products...nevertheless, i failed.
It also makes me wonder when meeting with my schoolmate. The last time she went for a facial was like five years ago, and i don't see she's having much problems on her face at all.
So, could it also be that all those beauty products that sells thousands of bucks don't actually work well. Or, perhaps, when you started using one, you'll need to continuously use it to avoid some blemishes on your face.Maybe...although the supposed to be 'beautician' would be telling you that, "oohhh, you wont realised now","oohhh, the result will only be visible when you're late 40's and by then it will be too late",..blablabla......

All in all, women will always succumb to preserving their beauty for whatever reasons with whatever means.

And perhaps, the agless beauty course wont be make me be the Lara Croft of the man made Beauty World.

Thursday, 30 October 2008


There is this poll done by one company on the people of Qatar on certain things in life and that includes queuing up for anything including when it comes to paying one's stuff at a shopping mall.
Not surprisingly, majority of them 'believe' that it is their right as 'the people' to not que when there are needs for it. It seems that; why should they que. This is their country!
This is seriously a very 'barbaric' statement came from the lots of non-cultured people with egos bigger than their heads.

I laughed when reading that because, what else can you expect?!
It is written even in the Holy book of Quran Al-Kareem that these lots are a very snobbish and self-centred people.

I have in a couple of incidents experience and witnessed these people just jump out of nowhere and pretending that there's no one else queing. Funny bit is, only the whites dares to tell them off. The Asian are ever so 'politely' allow these snobbish people to just cut-in.
Sorry, not me. Not even in my own country where some 'kampung' lot just slot in themselves in front of registration counter, or information counter and started asking.
I will definitely give them a piece of personal etiquette 'advice'.

I had an experience where one huge old fart lady with her skinny daughter just popped in out of nowhere putting their clothes at the cashier counter while i was standing there about to put mine for payment.
Non-hesitantly, i didn't look at them but pushed the clothes aside and stand really right in front the cashier not giving them way at all.
That is how they need to be treated. Ignore their existance. Be stern with them. And last but not least be snobbish.
Hahahaha.... i laughed when sharing this with my significant half later.

My opinion; there is no help on how to get these people to become a better person.
So as long as they are what they are called........


Hhmmmmm...wonder why my recent post aren't published...

Tuesday, 28 October 2008

Sombre life of mine

Have not been logging in for while.
I have been away and back to home country for one good deserving holiday.
Meeting up with family members is such a fulfilment, especially spending time with my parents.
Like always, and everytime, it will definitely make me just wanna crawl to the airport and miss the plane when it comes to going back to the other 'home'.

I have always trying my best instilling in me that i should learnt to accept this other 'home' as my home.
That i have two home in my life, or treat the other home as vacation home; i failed.
I cannot find solace where i am right now.
I cannot learn to accept some things here; perhaps i refused to compromised in it at all.

I don't have the people that i have known half of my life to share opinion with eventhough there are people of the same country here, they just doesn't fit the bill; at all, probably due to a lot of factors and that includes geographically speaking.

I don't have the usual place that i can go to and get my personal beautification done (although the actual reasons was just to wind-out and relax) as i do back in my home place. Basically, i do not have a fulfilling life at all here...it is almost like redundant.

I hate it, but i have got to go with it.
That is the most painful thing a human should endure.

I have changed my life 360 degree. From being a fast driver both in carrier and on the highway to catch up with time and appointments, to being secluded to four walls taking care of one cheeky- yet lovely- going 2-year old daughter and a husband in some foreign land.
No doubt that it does take a toll on my stress level initially, but it begins to run down a bit now.
But eliminating the stress? Nope, don't think so. It would be near impossible i dare to say.

So, again, the aftermath of a good holiday back home is to dwell in this sombre moods for the time being until i got back on track in this land that is not a home.....

Thursday, 11 September 2008


By Jody K. Biehl in Berlin

In the past four months, six Muslim women living in Berlin have been brutally murdered by family members. Their crime? Trying to break free and live Western lifestyles. Within their communities, the killers are revered as heroes for preserving their family dignity. How can such a horrific and shockingly archaic practice be flourishing in the heart of Europe? The deaths have sparked momentary outrage, but will they change the grim reality for Muslim women?

Hatin Surucu just wanted to live her own life.

Instead, she became Berlin's latest victim of honor killings. Her Turkish Muslim brothers allegedly gunned her down for adopting Western ways.
The shots came from nowhere and within minutes the young Turkish mother standing at the Berlin bus stop was dead.

A telephone call from a relative had brought her to this cold, unforgiving place. She thought she would only be gone for a few minutes and wore a light jacket in the freezing February wind. She had left her five-year-old son asleep in his bed. He awoke looking for his mother, who, like many Turkish women in Germany, harbored a secret life of fear, courage and, ultimately, grief. Now her little boy has his own tragedy to bear: His mother, Hatin Surucu, was not the victim of random violence, but likely died at the hands of her own family in what is known as an "honor killing."

Hatin's crime, it appears, was the desire to lead a normal life in her family's adopted land. The vivacious 23-year-old beauty, who was raised in Berlin, divorced the Turkish cousin she was forced to marry at age 16. She also discarded her Islamic head scarf, enrolled in a technical school where she was training to become an electrician and began dating German men. For her family, such behavior represented the ultimate shame -- the embrace of "corrupt" Western ways.

Days after the crime, police arrested her three brothers, ages 25, 24 and 18. The youngest of the three allegedly bragged to his girlfriend about the Feb. 7 killing. At her funeral, Hakin's Turkish-Kurdish parents draped their only daughter's casket in verses from the Koran and buried her according to Muslim tradition. Absent of course, were the brothers, who were in jail.
The crime might be easier to digest if it had been an archaic anomaly, but five other Muslim women have been murdered in Berlin during the past four months by their husbands or partners for besmirching the family's Muslim honor.

Two of them were stabbed to death in front of their young children, one was shot, one strangled and a fifth drowned. It seems hard to fathom, but in the middle of democratic Western Europe -- in Germany, a nation where pacifism is almost a universal mantra -- murderous macho patriotism not only exists but also appears to be thriving. It may even be Germany's liberalism -- and its post World War II fear of criticizing minority cultures -- that has encouraged ultra-religious families to settle here.

The problem is that much of this insular and ultra-religious world is out of public view, often hidden in inner-city apartments where the most influential links to the outside world are satellite dishes that receive Turkish and Arabic television and the local mosque. Tens of thousands of Turkish women live behind these walls of silence, in homes run by husbands many met on their wedding day and ruled by the ever-present verses of the Koran. In these families, loyalty and honor are elevated virtues and women are treated little better than slaves, unseen by society and often unnoticed or ignored by their German neighbors.

To get what they want, these women have to run. They have to change their names, their passports, even their hair color and break with the families they often love, but simply can no longer obey.

Turkish women who have fled their husbands and violent marriages and live in a shelter take a stroll in Munich's Olympic Park. The women, activists say, live in constant fear that their husbands or families will find them and abuse or kill them.Precise statistics on how many women die every year in such honor killings are hard to come by, as many crimes are never reported, said Myria Boehmecke of the Tuebingen-based women's group Terre des Femmes which, among other things, tries to protect Muslim girls and women from oppressive families.

The Turkish women's organization Papatya has documented 40 instances of honor killings in Germany since 1996. Examples include a Darmstadt girl whose two brothers pummelled her to death with a hockey stick in April 2004 after they learned she had slept with her boyfriend. In Augsburg in April, a man stabbed his wife and 7-year-old daughter because the wife was having an affair. In December 2003, a Tuebingen father strangled his 16-year-old daughter and threw her body into a lake because she had a boyfriend. Bullets, knives, even axes and gasoline are the weapons of choice.

The crime list compiled by Papatya is an exercise in horror. And the sad part, said Boehmecke, is that it is far from complete. "We'll never really know how many victims there are. Too often these crimes go unreported."
In many cases, fathers -- and sometimes even mothers -- single out their youngest son to do the killing, Boehmecke said, "because they know minors will get lighter sentences from German judges." In some cases, these boys are revered by their community and fellow inmates as "honor heroes" -- a dementedly skewed status they carry with them for the rest of their lives. Currently, six boys are serving time in Berlin's juvenile prison for honor killings. "In a way, these boys are victims, too," she said. Sometimes they are forced to kill their favorite sister.


I thank God Almighty for having me born as a Muslim not in these Arabs or some Muslim countries such as Jordan or Turkey.

I recently read yet another news about how a young woman was killed when she tried to escape from her family prostitution ring; she was made a prostitute. Like in some other similiar cases where the women tries to seek justice or freedom for themselves, she will be killed by her own flesh and blood. And the ones that will do the honour must be their own brother. All in the name of family honour and a form of 'cleansing'.

As usual, like in all man dominated countries, this young woman's brother was caught. The most disheartening yet true part is the sentence behind bars are for mere two years!

I you ask me, i would say life as a woman in these countries is very stifling and subservient. Like known fact, man have egos. But when the egos got too big for their head, plus with some 'known' attitude especially from certain clans, my only word to these lots are 'total male chauvanist pig'. These are the action that gave the religion bad reputations. These are also the people that think they are above women in everything except for bearing children and mending the house.
And amazingly although the human has been evolved and now living in this milleneium, the governments of these countries usually will not put emphasis on well being of their.

And Saudi Arabia is still a joke to me.

It show how shallow and silly their thinking is that women are created probably just to fulfill their sexual needs and bear offsprings besides staying at home to do nothing at all. What got their brain's blocked when they adapted the law against women driver since i dont know when.

There was a recent case where the daughter of a family drove the father and brother to the hospital when their house went ablaze. According to her statement to the press, the ER staff were stunned to see a woman coming out from the driver's seat.
The father was the one who thought her to drive in their own compound.
Well, at least the father has got more brains than some decision maker.
And do the ruler of the country thought that every one of them are as rich as him and can afford a driver.
Imagine if the household got more and three working and studying women with school going kids.....hhhmmmmmm......

It was also said that single working woman or student needed to fork-out around eight hundred to 1500 Riyals per month to pay driver to drive them around. Well, i know that this is a country i would not want to resides in giving all very strict restrictions against women. I would feel not second class but life is like a caged bird.

Now, it makes me wonder wouldn't these people are all Muslims?
Why did the Prophet Muhammad (saw) married a woman trader when he was one of her worker in his early years? It obviously shows that woman are allowed to do other things than being the man's pride and possession.

What would it take for their women to be living life to the fullest......